Sunday I did my first proper cross country - a club league event. I was last. There was only about 160 runners so I was very last and the car park was all but empty (apart from my lift!) when I finished.
It was damn hard work too ... I aimed for 80 mins given that it was described as "a proper XC with testing hills on both laps" - considering this part of the country think that hills in my mind are slight slops I was scared! The morning brought rain too, lots of rain so it was also a mud bath! I still have mud in my toe nails despite 2 baths and 2 showers!
My actual time was 82 mins so I was really pleased if somewhat demoralised at being last! I was also convinced by the end of the race that I wasn't going to do XC I would stick to roads (well at least until FLM is over with!) and that if I did do XC I needed spikes not just off road shoes!
Yesterday I felt really quiet good - I was expecting to be stiff like last week but was fine! Which shows improvement in itself! I'm fine today too!
Work today has been horrid ... lots to do and no help from anyone. I'm feeling lost amd worried and as a result I'm eating for comfort. I also want to hide my head in the sand and hope it all goes away (hence typing this instead of working!). I'm getting grief for getting behind and just want to stop and sulk. It's good to be busy but not good when you don't know what you are doing. I have Thursday and Friday off - I can't wait!
Today would have been my grandparents annivery - but granddad passed away 11th December 2003. I called my grandma today to let her know I was thinking of her and she didn't seem in the least bit bothered it was just another day. Maybe that is her way of coping but it made me very sad and upset. Another reason for eating too much and wanting to stick my head in the sand.
Tonight I hope to go for a run in the dark with my new yellow woolly hat - I hope that will make me feel better. Just have to stop eating now so I can run or I'll just hate myself even more!
It was damn hard work too ... I aimed for 80 mins given that it was described as "a proper XC with testing hills on both laps" - considering this part of the country think that hills in my mind are slight slops I was scared! The morning brought rain too, lots of rain so it was also a mud bath! I still have mud in my toe nails despite 2 baths and 2 showers!
My actual time was 82 mins so I was really pleased if somewhat demoralised at being last! I was also convinced by the end of the race that I wasn't going to do XC I would stick to roads (well at least until FLM is over with!) and that if I did do XC I needed spikes not just off road shoes!
Yesterday I felt really quiet good - I was expecting to be stiff like last week but was fine! Which shows improvement in itself! I'm fine today too!
Work today has been horrid ... lots to do and no help from anyone. I'm feeling lost amd worried and as a result I'm eating for comfort. I also want to hide my head in the sand and hope it all goes away (hence typing this instead of working!). I'm getting grief for getting behind and just want to stop and sulk. It's good to be busy but not good when you don't know what you are doing. I have Thursday and Friday off - I can't wait!
Today would have been my grandparents annivery - but granddad passed away 11th December 2003. I called my grandma today to let her know I was thinking of her and she didn't seem in the least bit bothered it was just another day. Maybe that is her way of coping but it made me very sad and upset. Another reason for eating too much and wanting to stick my head in the sand.
Tonight I hope to go for a run in the dark with my new yellow woolly hat - I hope that will make me feel better. Just have to stop eating now so I can run or I'll just hate myself even more!
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pathetic excuses every one - so will go to club tonight instead! Must get some miles in for that small run in April!