I think it's starting to get to me!

Last night I had a panic atack in my sleep!
I had a dream that was really weird, started off all familier with friends and everything was fine, then it all went wrong. I was running down stairs with my best mate. She was infront of me and skipped down the stairs easily and happily shouting "come on" to me. As I started going down the stairs they got steeper and narrower and the stair well got deeper. I started to panic and called out to my friend "I can't do it". I kept on repeating this as the stairs got steeper and steeper. Then the banister disappeared and I was squashed against the wall with no where to go.

It was horrid

Comments

beanz said…

"sounds like a typical anxiety dream to me" said beanz Freud

it'll all be ok on the day

xx

10:20 AM, April 13, 2005

Evil Pixie said…

never thought I would be described as typical! But I think I can agree!
Not that I'm a gibbering wreck or anything!

11:23 AM, April 13, 2005

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